Its just the begining of a beautiful journey...

2007-04-09T08:12:00.000-07:00

quite a series of event unfolded over the weekend...
my lill cousin darrly had a bad fall...
well he is safe and sound now..
but the scar will awaes remain...
its big and long...
but i admire him..
he was strong for his age...

as for the others i shant mention..

jus let the days accelerate quickly...

2007-03-15T01:26:00.000-07:00

it been almost a month since school officially ended..
been meeting up with friends , thinking and sorting out my path for the future..
there so many things to think abt..
trust is an important element in times of this...
should have jus work temp till the application results are out..
oh well..
it jus abt waiting , waiting and more waiting
wad i really want haven changed much...
still clinging on to the thin ray of hope..
i wont give up so easily... : )
cos things awaes turn out fine when i least expect them too...
jus like my exams results..
it wasnt fantastic...
well i jus learn to be contented...
jus glad that i din have to retake any modules....

bonnie and josh >> i hope we get to hang out more often tho we often since to have comm prob..walking prob and wad not...heehe..

2007-02-18T07:39:00.000-08:00

feeling lost...
gt bomarded with a whole lot of qns on what's the next step during the cny visitations..
in an eye wink , i will be done with sch...
arghz...i jus hate to stop schooling...
but come to think of it...
had i have the opp to turn back tym i wld still have chose this path..
dun wana work at this age...
but i guess i m left with no choice...
feeling of insecurity is overwhelming...

all i want is to continue studying...
is it realie that difficult...

2007-02-05T21:31:00.000-08:00

one( fsm lab) down...
finalee over...left with the report..
jus wana say
a big thank you to my management team esp my asst managers ( xin yee & sue yi) ...
great job !!
let chiong for the rest of our assignments and test ya..
add oil...
tmr will be another one down...

2007-02-02T02:04:00.000-08:00

time flies..
nxt week will be our fsm lab liaos..
hope everything will turn out fine on that dae..
somehow i dun feel stress...
guess..it jus cos i m too stress to feel that wae that i can totalee heck abt it...
the mountain of workload still not cleared..
with sumthing due on every single dae...
it like fighting a battle...
Lord, gif me the strenght to carry on..
i mas be strong...
to perserve thru..

along the wae, perceptions do change...
yet, i still want my student life...
maybe not as much any longer..
sumhow i wish i cld become a sec sch gal once again..
maybe things wld have been diff...
maybe...
jus a list of nvr ending maybe...

2007-01-27T01:56:00.000-08:00

watched happy birthday!!
wasnt as nice as i tot it wld be..
ended up cabbing home...
wasted $7 tho it was simply so near....

guess i kinda bored ya..
wasnt in a mood ..
been mood-less...
arghz...

2007-01-27T00:41:00.000-08:00

argh...
a mountain of work load..
simply jus cant wait to close this chapter of my life rite now...
tho it may seem so uncertain wad the nxt chpt will entials...
Mp, fsm , pdm jus 3 modules but it is enough to kill me...
being the leader makes it worst... :(
haven done a gd job...
failed to set the direction...
decreasing motivation with each passing day..
i loathe this all...
still...
i m taking this leap of faith
to trust in him..
to lean on his promises..
n i will be fine...
cos he will pull me thru...
jia you, jia youx, jia youx...

it been quite some time since we last chatted on the phone.. :)
tho it wasnt a long one...
it was nice of ya...
thanks mic !!

2006-12-29T23:06:00.000-08:00

woah...it been ages since i did any updating..
well...i guess it awaes good to do sum reflections b4 the yr closes..

2006 has definitely been a significant yr...
got to experience and learn frm stuff i never did..
got to know more ppl better...
i shld say it neither a gud or bad one..
cos pratically every yr will be filled with ups n down..
and it gets kinda hard to measure...
well..memories will awaes be memories...

highlights of 2006 ....

17 apr - 8jul
did my internship at nestle..an opportunity i never did dream of..and i thank God for it...tho it seems as tho i never enjoyed working there..of cos i had my fair share of fun.. :)it was indeed an eye opening experience..

jul to oct
worked at azabo sabo..i awaes wanted to work as a waitress and i finalee managed to do so..the friendships forged were great !! tho i hardly keep in contact with any as of now...

19 & 21 nov
the best bdae celebrations i had so far tho it din turned out the way i wanted it to ...the things my frens/ siblings did truly touched me...thanx , love ya lots...hope i get to celebrate it on the yatch on my 21st...

25 nov

15 -18 dec
the 2nd yf camp i have been to and enjoyed it...

25 dec
gathering at my hse..
hmm..wonder if we wld have such gathering when we grad...

2006-12-13T09:45:00.000-08:00

terms test finalee over liao...

this fri will be off for youth camp liao ..
hope it enjoyable...
dun wana feel like b4 man..
was hoping to be in the same grp as sum ppl..
but too bad...

2006-12-03T07:41:00.000-08:00

so not her...
so bu xiang yang...
so wrong...what is..
everything is...

sry ar...
din mean 4 thing to be like this..
but i noe for sure its impossible de..
it jus a matter of time de..

i hate her too..
dun u ?
maybe u do..
but jus taking things in ur stride ya..

2006-11-27T05:34:00.001-08:00

sch so.. i hate it
never hated it soo much b4..
never felt like this b4..
the more i want to do well..
the more i think i cannot..
wad this man..
last sem liao..
arghz..jus feel like quitting it..
wads happening?

2006-11-27T05:34:00.000-08:00

2006-11-26T05:16:00.000-08:00

guess this post kinda back dated..
still i would like to thank all my darlingx..
for the pre celebration..
celebrations..
n post celebrations...
this bdae was definitely wonderfully memorable...

Special thanx goes to..

dearie bonnie-for planning everything..
kor- for what u have done..
xin yee- for taking the time to organise
keat-for baking the cake
mic - for oragnising the dinner
des- thanx 4 everything

not forgetting my other darlings who rem to wish me..
thanx for the pressie ppl..

2006-11-17T08:22:00.000-08:00

work's pilling as the weeks goes by..
hidden work here there n every where..
arghz..
my bdae coming...but i dun seem to be in the mood to celebrate it at all...
well it jus another dae..
wanted it to be realie special this yr..
even drew up the invitation list..
cos i holds sum degree of significance to me..
yet it turn out jus as usual..
well...it jus gona be another dae n i dread it coming..
and i mean it..

all i ask is that my frens will rem it even if we are nt gg to celebrate it tgt with me..
a simple wish..
a simple card..
thats all i ever asked..

maybe it meant to be like that..
cos maybe it an indication of sumthing..
i duno...
dun care
dun want to noe either... arghz.

2006-11-14T04:57:00.000-08:00

jus received an offer frm RMIT ...
arghz but the future seem so bleak..
that simply cos the deg require me to complete it in 3 yrs..
and that a hell lotsa of $$ ...
i dun think i can go..
i think my hopes are dashed..
the tot of working aft my dip jus irks me..
i hate myself.. for not studying harder..
andi have been trying so hard this sem to pay back..
yet..everything seem so difficult..
it jus get so tiring..
if onli time cld turn back..
but whats the use of crying over spilled milk...
bleh..

2006-11-07T07:09:00.000-08:00

in an eye wink the wk's gona end..
tmr is wed which oso means mid wk..
this wk sumhw gt me thinking abt the future..
all i noe is i dont wish to
go back to an empty hse each dae aft work..
dats for sure..who wld ?

2006-11-06T05:51:00.002-08:00

ate dinner wif yee n the guys todae..
mum n sis left for japan liaox..
so by the time i gt home..
i was home alone...
i hate the feeling of being at home alone..
prob jus wasnt used to it bah..
i hope to school will end late everyday this wk so i wont be hm so early..
nah....
i m sure i will survived this wk de...

mic : i feel like staying over at ur hse this wk...anywae jia youx... n enjoy urself ya..

josh : thanx alot for hearing me out..it was unexpected yet appreciated.. :)

2006-11-05T05:43:00.000-08:00

haven been blogging cos i was simply too tired and lazy..
now there sumthing weighing me down..
duno who to tell or what to do..
guess i will jus blogg them down..

life never been fair so dun compare..
have u ever spare a thought for me!?
no never...u never did...
stop being so selfish...
to all my frens who thinks i prob further my education..
i dont think i will get to any longer..
and it simply thanks to u..
ur request will simply not be granted..
and i prob noe what u gona say..
if the end result is gg to ruin my future..
i simply say i hate u..
we all have grown up yet..
u still so insensible..immature...n selfish..
if i were to put myself in ur shoes..
i wouldnt have brought that request up ..
sometimes i wonder where's ur brain !?
no matter what u awaes been on the winning edge..
yet u awaes ask for so much...
it jus a stoopid prog which cost so much..
what the hell..
am totally dissappointed with u ..
regretted buying the shirt for u too..
bleh..

Lord, if that is an indication to a closed door to oversea edu
i dun think it justifyable..

2006-10-27T07:23:00.000-07:00

time table for todae sux..
had 5hr break in between..
din wanted to attend the lect lor..
still i went to sch..think it was the badminton that kept me gg...
sch ended at 3..
din noe where to go ..
the timing so bu 3 bu 4 oso..
this wk is last wk of honey moon-ing liaoz..
went to the com lab to search..
den i went home aft sch..
wanted to complete csas b4 heading home so that i could enjoy my wkends..
but what the heck assignments...so hard to find...spent so much time oso cant find..
bleh..so detestable...
whats wrong with me man ?
last sem liaos..jus have to perserve n gif my best ...
but somehow i feel pressured..cos i want to do well
who don't ? crap...
feeling feverish..at the badminton sessions..
hope i dun fall sick as sch start full swing...

thanz for going the extra mile to weigh the ingredient for us ya appreciated that ..
dun think u are gg to drop y here so i oso wont bother to mention ur name..hehehe...

2006-10-26T07:19:00.000-07:00

mp todae sux..
one silly mistake i made was by pouring in the left over water..
and bcos of that i had to measure all the other ingredients again..
main point is..
aft that the cake din turn out as it is suppose to be..
can even bake a cake properly..
what the heck was i doing or thinking man ?!
yee's cake too..
guess we jus werent in the mood to do mp..
so one precious day was wasted liaox..
jus like that..
stoopid me..
sighz..
at least she had a reason to feel like that..
me leh ?
no excuses..
bleh..jus hate myself...argh..

having decided to close for the day..
we started our crazy spree..
played chai chuan wif our the two enuchs n sue yi..
the mixture made by me n yee was practically digusting...
it consited of wasabi, mayo, water , ice , choc flavouring, salt, sugar,cinnamon n cake..
n i lost the most so naturally drank the most..bleh..
then we ate dinner opp sch...
jus love the bake rice..
jus love their company..
sch been enjoyable onli cos of them.. :)

2006-10-25T06:36:00.000-07:00

it mid week in to the start of sch..
arghz..we all jus dread all this..
simply cos we are still in holiday mood..
dread the crowd on the bus and canteens..
it was too hard to get a seat in flavours so we had to pack food..
went bugis with xin yee to do panidcure..
this time jas din went wif us...cos gt not $$..hahaz
bought a bracelet n headed str hm..
it jus the start yet...proj has been coming in one aft another..
arghz..
we all dread this don't we ?

u made my day this very morning :)
thanz..it was sweet of ya...

2006-10-25T06:13:00.000-07:00

a simple gal with a simple life..that's me..
and simple things can make me happy too.. :)
i dont ask for more cos..
i m contented with every aspectof my life..
yapx..i m easily contented..
but isnt that a gd thing ?

what comes my way..i will jus accept it..
what goes..i will jus let it go..
adopted tis attitude this yr..
cos of the thing or ppl that came my wae..
have indeed learnt to smile and walk awae..
a big thank you to those who taught me this...
when thing dun turn out the wae we expect them to be..
guess simplicity is the key...
i rem wen kai once said..
happiness is a choice..

mic >> the feeling u have with aloy , i can understand cos.. the same thing happened to me that very day u told me abt it..u can try guessing who that guy is..hahaz..i wasnt sure if i shld be happy or sad...but one thing for sure i was glad..truly glad..

2006-10-23T08:12:00.000-07:00

i think u have read her blog...
if u think that ignorance is a bliss..
den i seriously think its time to wake up..
hello..
ultimately..it the way we choose to deal wif the issues we face in life..
guess..i jus disappointed by hw u dealed with it..
being jaded isnt an excuse...
well..its ur life aftall..
i dont have any right to interfer either..
jus hope and pray that u will grow thru these..
jus rem that..
we both never hated ya..and will never ya

hey i think it realie time to let go..
he dosent prove that worth it aftall...
jus as he feels once gone..forever gone..
it isnt awaes true tho...

2006-10-20T09:14:00.000-07:00

planned to watched gong but ended up watching death note..
that movie is great...i love it...
ate dinner at ramen ten...
it been ages since i ate there..
enjoyed myself...guess u did too...
shld have took neo prints leh..
sighz.. sch starting liao..
we may not have time to go out liaox..

i not so i duno de la..
i noe its irritating to hear me say " i duno"
sry kaex..

2006-10-19T18:33:00.000-07:00

was reading shangjun's entry on closing chapters of one's life...
tho it was not written for me..
i felt it was really appropriate for me since...
in a few mths time a chapter of my life is going to be completed...
i must say the entry is realie well written..well said..
guess by now having crusie along 19 yr of my life...
i have indeed learnt, realised and discovered many things..
this yr has been a great yr for me...
great frens..great company...
of cos i too have my fair share of hurts..
yet..i noe when the time comes..
i will still be reluctant to close this very chapter of my life..
guess memories will awaes be memories..

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters- whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have been made complete.

entry i was referring to :
http://www.shangjun.blogspot.com/

2006-10-18T07:04:00.000-07:00

sometimes i jus wonder...
is it our misfortune that u stepped into our lives ?
or is it that u are jus fortunate to have the both of us stepped into your life ?
i wished all that din happen..
i wished u n him arent good frens..
jus bcos u guys are dosent give u the rt to use it as an excuse..
but most importantly...things wont have ended in this manner..
we all noe..for sure it will have a diff ending..
indeed a very diff one...

josh...
i seriously think one fine day me, u and her..
shld sit down n have a heart to heart talk..
there quite a number of issues that hasn't really been resolved..
cos we are all escaping frm it..
yet in actual fact..
we all live in self denial..
but one thing is for sure..
we never show the 'true' us ..
cos we awaes seem to appear as if ntgh has really happened..
guess only we ourselves know the truth..
and the truth often hurts..
no point blogging so much cos i noe that u' ll never chance upon this entry...
even if u did..i will prob even guess how u will react..
i dun noe if things are really best left unsaid ?
i realie think u ought to know something..
yet i dont have the rt to let u noe it..
haiz...
it very painful for her..
and when i see that i feel the pain too cos she's my fren..
but maybe...i still do like u..
maybe when i comes back frm aust and u haven gt attached..
maybe we will be tgt...
maybe...it jus maybe...
and i noe it will never be true..
that y i let it go right frm the very start..
guess i realie made the right move...

do u know ?
she 's missing ya..
missing the talks we used to have..
be it on the phone..
or while walking me home..
or on msn..
u promised not to forget me..
yet i anticipated all this coming..
but it alrite cos i glad we been frens b4..
been close before..
never expectated much frm u either..
most importantly..u gave me more than wad i expect...
take care...hope u are coping well with this sem workload..
jia youz...continue excelling in ur projs..

2006-10-15T06:06:00.000-07:00

lotsa qns...
losta doubts..
but there's onli one ans..
and they are all the same regardless of what the qns is..
yes, no , maybe, i dun know...

hate wasting my brain cells..
hate to think abt stuff..
hate being nice..
hate being soft hearted...
tired of all this man..
jus wished that i was numb..

been out the whole of the wkends...
its tiring man...
each time i promise to spent time with my parents..
each time i will end up hanging out with my frens...

2006-10-15T05:21:00.000-07:00

the latest craze now is vivo city...
it seems the whole of singaporeans can be found there man...
watched scoop with desmond...
spent practically the whole day out...
played arcade..
dinner was great !!
we ate at swensen earle...
guess wad we ate...
lobster with melted cheese and chocolate fondue...
oh man...tho i still prefer lobster salad...
it was def great ! everything...
frm the food to the ambience...
down right to the company.. :)
after dinner we headed down to bugis to get my bag..

expenses for that day was too high..
i spent a total of $76 plus man..
such a spent thrift...sighz..

2006-10-13T08:38:00.000-07:00

whee jus back hm aft shopping with dearie june..
so glad u say u will miss me when i leave...ahahaz..
saw 2 bags i realie love to own..
think i regretting not getting the puma bag...sighz..

at the age of 19 , we are still young...
yet many of us are already jaded..
by...
the things we see..
the things we encounter..
the things that happen..
bascially..
by what life entails..

aft thinking realie long and hard...
i decided to kiss goodbye to u..
let all this fade with time...
it will..
jus a matter of time bah..

2006-10-12T21:21:00.000-07:00

been having second tots for quite a number of stuff lately...
for instance...going to aust to further my studies..
shld i work for a few yrs 1st ?
den go..
or shld i jus go str..
and...shld i celebrate my 19 th bdae big..
tho i was reallie exicited and looking forward to it man..
here i m at the cross roads once again..
and these are all decision i have to make for myself..
since i have alrdy grown so big..
by right such decisions wld have been easily made since it was alreadly incalculate in me to make my own decision since young..
all the decisions were made by me..
what pri sch to go..
what sec to go...
what subject combi to take..
to go jc or poly..
wad course to take...
simply cos my parents jus left it to my own hands..
yeap...maybe u were taken aback..
but that how much freedom i have..
no curfews and stuff..
basically...you can say i rule my own life the way i wae i want it to...
yet i can say i still hate making decisions...
guess.. we jus fear we made the wrong move..
but den again..
i tend to fear quite alot of things..
guess the reason i m still single is
simply cos..
i choose to be..
choose not to commit...
for fear of a breakup...

all i ask is to know what i realie wants...

gona meet up with dearie june todae...
man..it been ages since we last met..
prob abt 2-3 mths..
knew this gona happen when uni starts for her..
but its alrite..
at least we still make the effort to go out tgt..
whee..hope we'll have losta fun shopping...

2006-10-11T08:40:00.000-07:00

have u ever wondered...
how a person can laugh so much?
is it realie cos the person is simply soooo cheerful...
think again...
laughters are awaes used to mask the pain in their lives...
cos they simply tot..
by laughing everything will be hidden...
so each time they jus try to laugh harder and happier...

i tot she wld not have regret her actions..
wld not regret rejecting his help...
but now things have change..
the ball is no longer in her court..
if everything were to start afresh...
perhaps she wld have jus accepted it..
it has happened twice..
guess she jus waiting for it to happen once again..
well life goes on..
it never stops...
until the very day we lay..
right there in the brown box..
so guess des is realie rt..
be sad...but move on...
trying her very best..
to live each day to the fullest...
cherishing and treasuring everyone in her life..

ps....miss ya lots...but it dosent matter anywae..
those times will awaes be memories deeply rooted in her heart..
thanx for everthing u 've done..
appreciated them tho it seems like she never did..
and jus took them for granted..
last of all..jus want to say sorry if she ever did hurt u..
cos she realie din meant them..

take carex... :)

2006-10-10T06:22:00.000-07:00

to me..a blog is the key to the door of one's inner world..
it been so long since i feel this sad...
all tgt i teared 4 times today..
and my eyes really hurt..
so many things...
so many emotions..

i tot everythign was fine aft dinner..
but i was wrong..
read his blog..
it was so sad...
and i miss him too..
has i realie crossed that line..

ps. it was great to hear ur voice...

2006-10-07T07:43:00.000-07:00

wanted to reg for the aust uni..
but i realised i mistake the date upon reaching the place..
luckily mic din acc me..cos it was a wasted trip man..
almost gt a lashing down frm daddy for being so blur..
haiz...

the rest of the day was spent checking out the camp site...
ate dinner at wif james, dennis, desmond, wen kai, bonnie and eugene..
it was esp delicious.. the beef hor fun...hahaz..
we shld eat tgt more often man..jus like a big family.. :)

eugene>> thanx for ur advice..guess u are rite aft all..
we reallie do noe the ans...jus that we arent satisfied..

2006-10-06T07:41:00.000-07:00

firstly, i would like to dedicate this post to my dearie xin yee and jasmine...

jus wana say..

no matter what others say or think...
i will awalys be proud to have u guys in my group kaez..
u guys are great... :)
and have done well so far...
seoriusly...i never regret taking up the title nor having grp mates like u guys..
tho i told xin yee how she shld haf grp with keat at first...
but it din mean anything kae..jus a comment..
we'll all prove we are jus as gud as them..
tho in hse..
tho 1st timer..

ate beef steak wif my family at the 5 star corner...
the food really good...
stay there for so long yet its my 1st time eating there..
it been a long time since we ate tgt...
it was too hazy so we din go and carry lantern..

kor commented that i comment a lot..
then ..it struck me.. i seem to becoming more and more like her...
gif unnecesary comments..which ppl dun seem to like to hear..
wah laox..how can i become such a person..
how did i become like that ?!
it beats me either...
maybe there are losta of ppl toking behind my back..
haiz..
sometimes i jus hate myself..
for the way i behave..
but i cant seem to be in control of myself..

2006-10-05T05:59:00.000-07:00

argh ...lost my file..
i seriously wants it back..
cos there are sum precious things inside..
wah lau file oso want to take..
bleh...

haiz..

if only u would tell me..
but if it is meant it will ultimately come back to me..

do you know..

she's missing you..

2006-10-04T07:16:00.000-07:00

was doing ntgh but watching tv upon reaching home..
cos these days i 've been too tired to do any shopping or wad so ever..
so life's been..sch, hm ,sch and more sch..
thanks to who ?
mp lorx..
guess we jus not used to it..
cos i tot mp was already quite relaxed for us..
imagine working..it worst..9-6pm
we only start work at 11..
then why am i complaining ?
beats me either..
somehow , i think internship was more qing song leh..
how come ar?
cos i practically do ntgh...
ahahz...
can surf blog frm start work to end work..
can eat snake and chat on the phone w/o getting caught..
man...i jus miss those days...
and i rem how i long for freedom to get out of that place..

aniwaex.. watched this prog on ch 8 that helps ppl to gif their love one suprises...
and guess what...
the nu zhu jiao wanted to rent a yatch to to propose to her husband..
well thats not the mian point..
the main point is...
the yatch cost $2000 for half a day..
which means its $4000 a day...
and if anoyone rem or happen to know..
thats exactly..
how i want to celebrate my 19 th birthday...
on a yatch...jus a small one will do..

there's a few reason why i want to celebrate it differently from the norm..
and they are..( 4 simple reasons)

1. its the last yr of poly
2. nxt yr will be a diff phrase of my life cos i gona be 20
3.wont be celebrating my 21 if i make it a really big one this yr..
4. simply cos i most prob will be gg aust to further my studies..

too bad thats too ex liaox..simply cant afford it...
maybe my wish will still cum true if my frens are willing to pay entrance fee..hahaz..
but too bad nobodi is so gd de..
so..there goes my idea...down into the big drain..
i guess i will just saved that for my wedding..
that is ..if i ever going to get married...hahaz..
now i noe..the importance of being rich...
as the chinese saying goes..
you qian zhen hao...
hope this does not imply that i am a materialistic gal..Lol..

the nxt prog is abt young kids switching families..
i guess it is designed to test the adaptability of the kids..
which i thought was rather fun and interesting cos..
i wld also like to try my hands on that.. :)
imagine...that i have an elder sis instead of bro..
wah..that wld be great man..or perhaps..
a younger bro..hmm...
still think the former sounds better..ahahz..

2006-10-03T05:35:00.000-07:00

ate lunch at ajisen with desmond today..
it was my first time there..
i must say the food there is not bad...
the ambience there is not bad too..
cos they've gt my fave booth seats..
yapx..we sat the booth seats... :)
i ate the veg ramen...
and felt so healthy aft that...ahahaz...
wanted to take some photos but...
we realised that the waiters were looking at us...
dont know for what oso..
take pic oso cannot meh...
aniwae i still managed to take photos of the food...
but it drained sooo much of my (shift 4)- if u get wad that means...
it time to save up liaox..
eveything jus cost sooo much these days man..
jus gona close myself at home..
that will help quite abit...i think..
aft we finish eating..
we called for the bill..
and it was quite hilarious...
cos both of us insisted of paying 1st..
we took out our card at the same time..
but in the end he was the one who foot the bill..
tho younger than me..
he's kinda gentleman in his own ways.. :)
well..it was a pleasure having lunch with him..
aft that...
des waited with me for the bus..
although he supposed to take another bus..
cos he was practically too free..
hahaz..think he gt so gud meh..
no lorx..
nobodi is so gud de..
cos everyone is very xian shi in this world..

and as u have guessed..
the rest of the day was spent in sch..
doing what ??
Mp lorx...
still got wad?!
so glad we dont have to use the stoopid dried egg powder ..
it wasted so much of our time man...

2006-10-02T02:40:00.000-07:00

sumtimes...life get realie frustrating...
the problems we face..
jus pile higher and higher...
argh...

ate lunch at hans wif mum...
the student meal realie cannot make it man..
not worth the money at all...
bleh..
then mum acc me to register for driving..
there goes a few hundred bucks..
it really expensive lor..
i jus think gals are jus meant to be driven ard..
well it wasnt really my choice to learn driving..
it was dad who insited i shld..
and since young...
my parents never had any expectations on me..
so i thought i should jus fulfill his wish that i learn how to drive..
aftall that he have gave me..
but its giving me much pressure..
it the time factor..the time constraint..
argh...
i guess..
there isnt awalys opportunity to turn back..
to make a u-turn...
life is like driving on the road..
u can only make a u-turn whe u see a u-turn sign..
and not whenever u feel like it..

nevertheless...i love u lots mummy and daddy..
thanx..for giving us the best...
i will treasure all the thing u guys gave me...

2006-10-01T08:12:00.000-07:00

can someone pls..
tell her...
what has she done wrong...
to be deserved to be treated like that...
it's irrititating...
it's agonizing...
and she already gt losta problems...
but...
she will not tear..
cos she will stay strong..
bleh...

ps: dun bother helping if u intend to carry on treating her like that...bleh...

2006-10-01T06:50:00.000-07:00

went wif mic to thiong bahru park for pre lantern celebrations..
yeapx...it was jus the 2 of us...so romantic ritex...
sometimes i jus think...that if only she a guy...
we wld have become bf and gf..
but too bad..
she's a gal...
so we ended up being ..
best frens..
the best we can be...

too lazy to upload the pic...pls refer to mic blog cos i think she will upload them...

mic >> we shld haf dinner more often at tbp...
the food there is gd...

2006-09-29T07:29:00.000-07:00

mp oficially starting on 2 oct..
have been gg to sch the past few days for it...
to be exact, it only 3 days..
well...i mas admit...
mp...can be fun yet frustrating...
cos our supervisor awaes seem to appear when we are abt to pack and go..
and it will awaes mean more work or bad news...
argh..i hate mp...its getting on my nerves liaox..
how can ...it jus the start..
haiz...

hope i wont become a fat pig by the end of mp...
been eating cake after cake with each passing day...
wen kai's right aft all...
think i am getting fatter liaox..
oh no...
argh..
but i just love eating..
jus love food..
and most importantly i find my comfort in them..

the day began at 9pm...
thought baker's maths wld be an easy feat...
initailly, everything was fine...
then things got harder...
i was practically lost...
perhaps..it been sooo long since we had lectures..
that explain the lost-ness bah..

was already very tired cos the nite before i din have a good sleep...
somehow i couldnt sleep...
was pratically tossing and turning...
and waking up every now and then...
argh...

basically...
today was not only a long but bad day...
thing jus din went on as smoothly as expected...
xy was also getting high- jus like me...
toward the end of the dae...
went to libray to print my results..
yes..it was such a simple and easy task...
yet...i encountered soooo many problems..
that i took about 30 min or more to complete it...
and had to keep dear xy and keat waiting..
sry ar ...not my fault...
next i went back to the lab..
just as i thought the unsmoothness end right there..
it din...
spent a long time opening the locker too...
was all alone there...
then i keep imaging that there some 'ghost'..
so i kept rubbing my eyes..
wah lau...locker leh..
awaes open them in a jiffty de lorx..
haiz...sway means sway...

next wk will be a better one..
i hope it will...
mas jia you worx..

2006-09-28T07:25:00.000-07:00

wanted to go and apply for uni todae..
but ended up hanging out wif mic and her poly frens at orchard....
ate toast and drank ying yong...
and there goes my $8...
bleh...

why ?
cos she was a no brainer...
she din and did not know wad doc to bring..

just...
love their company ...
love their high-ness ...
maybe that why we clicked bah...
love them the just the way they are..
but most imptly cos they are mic's frens... :)

2006-09-27T07:51:00.000-07:00

in an eye wink...
the holi going to end...
all i want is to end it with a bang !
but how ?

i want to go and play the go- karts at escape...
should have went last sat man...
no use regretting liaoz...

2006-09-27T07:41:00.000-07:00

the truth is ...

she never once hated her..
but dino y she din either..
tho at times she wonder how cum she jus din...
but all she wanted was to wish her the best with him...

what does it mean when...

someone cared sooo much to even cry for u ...
guess it jus means that...
it has crossed that very line...
perhaps...
at that very instance...
perhaps..
all along...

sometimes she jus wished...
she knew more...

it jus feels strange cos somewhow she could feel the tinge of sadness..

2006-09-26T05:12:00.000-07:00

once again our path cross..yea! guess it isnt difficult to have them crossed...
went to to k wif jovin,daniel, jeftor and mic...
too bad jerry wasnt there this time...
same place...same time...jus that we left later this time round...
reached home at 12...thanx...daniel for giving me that ride home..
hmm...its really great to hang out with ppl so much older than us...
but i could tell that dad wasnt very happy with me hanging out with jovin..
maybe cos he was afraid that jeftor and me...
still that wont hinder me from being their friends..hahaz...
jus wont let him know the nxt time i am with them...
anywae...jovin is realie nice ...she treats me very well and is so concern abt us...
guess daddy is too guarded abt her...that so typical abt him...
well ppl their age tend to be to cautious ...too guarded...
but i must admit jovin's husband ( daniel) is a bad influence man...ahahaz...
yeap...me and mic were lyke their kids.....hahaz...

it awaes great to have a wide circle of frens...
frens from diff age grp..like ppl younger or older...
i guess older frens are awaes more fun to hang out with..
but most importantly... make sure your friends are steady...

2006-09-25T01:09:00.000-07:00

Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe sideSo I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid I watched you die I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain
And now I cry In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt

Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Dear frens this song realie nice...i love it !!
if u are ever wondering
how come i been listening sooo much to english songs...well i dun realie noe either...
thanks josh for sharing this song.. :)
you know what?
the song u listen to are jus a reflection of your feelings..
they really are...
not that i am thinking too much
but i jus know they are
dun ask me why...
i jus do...
no matter how much u try
to deny...
to conceal...
to brush it aside...
to be callous..
to be indiff..
jus wana say...
i will aswaes be there for u as fren of cos..

well..sometimes i jus wonder...
what are frens for ?
for u to use ??
isnt it so typical...
that when our gal fren will awaes come crying to us when they jus broke up wif their bf..
and half the time they were so bz wif their bf...
i noe this make me sound kinda bad..
but inst it so true...
so real..
that so often we are so guilty of using our frens
and vice versa
i realie duno either...

on a lighter note...this jus some of my thoughts...
dont take them too seriously ya...
dont hink too much abt it too...
it dosent mean i wont help ppl when they asked me to..
so if u gt any probs u can awaes approach me for help..
jus a phone call away ya...

2006-09-25T00:13:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered why ...
ppl always bother spending time to think of never ending scenarios..
that might never or will never occur to them in their life...
and so often..
the solutions they thought of wld not be reflected in thier actions when it really happens..
thats because there's always a deviation exisiting btwn reality and our perceptions..

2006-09-22T07:34:00.000-07:00

haiz...feeling rather vexed..but i dun know y either..maybe it cos i dun haf enulf slp bah..
aft the ton-ing sessions at mic hse...i was feeling rather tiredx...that all i ever want to do is stay home and rot..its seems like ages i haven been home for dinner..haven stayed home the whole day.. haven spent time with my family...
well, basically this wk was spent preparing for mic bdae..i m glad its finally over...wah...bdae only so tired liao...then wedding how ar ? anywae...i had great fun at mic hse...i practically knew each and every one of her frens...and they were jus lyke my frens...so chummy and everything...even tho that was the first time i saw them...it's really the best wae to end the holi...on a high note...

2006-09-20T07:56:00.000-07:00

went to gai gia alone again while waiting for serene to come..
ate at sakae for dinner...and guess wad ?
i onli paid $3 for it...
not bcos we ate so lill...
should haf ordered the red plates man so lugi...hahaz..

2006-09-20T00:12:00.000-07:00

rarr...can some one pls tell me how me there's sooo many things to do...
arent we supposed to be having our holi...wah lau holi mai chiam duno lyke wad oso...
so packed...there awaes something for me to do everyday...dont understand oso..
sometimes i wonder how comes the pace of our life is soooo fast man ?
we often complain of how busy we are...that we dont have the time...and blah blah...
i guess it jus how we manage out time bah...
i once read sumwhere that human relationships are the most impt in our life...
i dont know if it true..well...indeed frens come and go...
and sum frens are more significant than the others at some point of time in your life..
but when the journey is over..they lose their significance...
and some other frens will take over their place...
yet there are those who are awaes constant in ur life...
the friendship never changed...no matter how long u guys haven been in contact for..
there are many elements that make or breaks a friendship..
and so often they are not within our control...
well i guess dat wad friendships are...
wad life is abt..

in the past...friendship was sumthing i once held dearly
but now.. everything has lost their significance in my life...
at least i m happy and contented...so...ntghing ever gona matter liaox...
jus loving thing the way they are... :)

lastly, to you...
i dont know and will ever noe if ur nick on that day was directing at me...
for the 1 st time i could jus felt how come they jus hit me so hard..that i actually cried..
for your infor...i never did tear over that issue...tho she did..i never..
cos time and again...
you told us that ur nick were never significant..
and that we shouldnt dwell so much into them...
from taht on i never did..
so jus pls tell me i am wrong..
that i am thinking too much...
cos if not...
and the song you sent me together with the lyrics you provided me...
din realie take note of the lyrics until today..
den everything jus come tgt...
i dont noe if you are trying to mean anything..
i dont want to guess and think it that way too...
cos i dun haf time for you either ...
jus lyke u dun haf any for me...
it jus reciprocal ya...
neither do you call the shots...
tho i dont deny..u were indeed once very significant it my life..
but the tables has turned...

ps : if you are ever wondering how come it abt u again...let me tell ya..
it jus cos there's some thing i still wana say but i felt that thing are beta said this way... where thing are really meant...
dats y lor...sumtimes i jus wished u din close ur blog... sometimes i wished u werent...thing wld def be diff...we all noe for sure..but all this no longer matter ya...cos we all have moved all..you, me or her...we all will ..its jus a matter of time ya.. :) take carex..

2006-09-19T04:40:00.000-07:00

how time realie flies man..the hrs jus passes like mins...
the day can jus pass jus like dat when i haven even accomplish much..

one day i think i will jus die of radiation...why ?
cos i been toking too much on my hp liaoz...
i realised the no. of ppl i could talk to on the phone has grown...
been talking to ppl i least expect to talk to on the phone recently...
so call my home kaez...simply cos i dun wana die of radiation...ahahaz..
and i think i no longer like to talk on the phone as much as i used to like...
well..for some ppl i will still love talking to them on the phone..
nah..it jus the crazy me talking a whole load of crap once again..
duno y oso...jus getting crazier by the dae...
the ppl ard it haf said dat too...
do i care?
does it bother me?
no ar simply cos i couldnt care less..muahahz..

thot for the day...
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

2006-09-19T02:06:00.000-07:00

went back to sch ystd for the progress interview..
and guess who our evaluator was ?
ta da the ans is Mrs Tay the deputy director of AS...
wha lau..who wld haf expected that she was one of the evalauator man...
but never mind...
she shoot and shoot and shoot...wad else can i say man..i died lor..
maybe i was too complacent...
den u mas be thinking how hard can the qns get man..
well well...it time to wake up...i guess...
but how man when the resoucres are sacre and hardly avaliable...
holi ending man...in an eye's wink it gona be gone...

aft the interview me yee and jas went to bugis for panidcure sessions..
it was my first time..wow so shuang...jus feel lyke so tai tai man...hahaz
but i choose the wrong colour liaoz...it too pinkish...eeks...
dat was how mon was for me...

todae you have jus earned a spacial place in my heart...
simply jus by the decision you made...
although i cld sumhow sense wad it was going to be...
i dont think you will be reading it either..
even if you are..you might not even noe dat i m directing this word to ya either...ahahaz...

a simple life...dat wad i want...and dats wad life is for me.. :)

2006-09-17T09:11:00.000-07:00

Give me one reason...

Give me one reason to live without him. Give me one reason to walk away. I know you don’t understand this feeling, how can I show, that he is the reason i have to let you go.I’ve tried so hard to change your mind. I always thought that you’d understand the reasons why. why I don’t want to do the things that I used to do. Now that my heart and my soul belong to God and God alone. Every nights a fight to make it through, I can’t deny I’m still in love with you but how can you expect me to walk with him and give myself to you..

Boy I still long for your embrace. But what I found in God, oh it could never, never be replaced. Still I pray for the chance as you slip through my hands you come around. My hearts so far away from the words I’m trying to say. Wish I could hold you both and still be true, there’s only one thing left for me to do. Baby I love you, but I cant stay with you unless you love him too...

I found the path that I got to take. The journey back to the old way, got a chance to take, sacrifice to make, whatever it takes I won’t turn away...

thanx for sharing this song wif me...it reaile nice :)

2006-09-16T06:33:00.000-07:00

jus feel lyke crying buckets...
but the tears jus wouldnt come...
drained...so emotionally drained...
each time we talked...we never fail to talk abt..
it no longer mattered cos i learnt to let go...
yet each time i never failed to be stumbled by the things u tell me..
as each time i discovered more...i never blamed u...
neither do i hate you...

cos we will move on...
and i definitely have !! :)

it bye to the old me..and hi to the new Desiree..
well perspectives change as we go along...i' ve seen myself come so far in the journey of life..
it amazing yet beyond my expectations...the changes i experienced...
if you you have known me well enough thenu will be able to detect those subtle changes...

this has been the happiest phrase of my life...its the peak of the 18 yrs of life...
it been sooo long since i laugh so much...laugh sooo heartily...
to those who think that bcos i laugh at the slightest thing then you are wrong..
too bad the holi gona end in a wink...well good things never last anywae..
as the saying goes tian xia mei you bu shan de yan xi...
so i m jus gona treasure all the thing ard me...haf fun n live life to the fullest lyke i never had :)
jus want things to stay the way they are as i cruise along in the journey of discovery...

2006-09-14T09:01:00.000-07:00

jus a super duper fun and crazy game... do it if u realie free...

1 Bonnie 11Jerry
2 Wen Kai 12Hui Yi
3 Mic 13Jester
4 Zell 14 Hui Jun
5 Xin Yee 15Jian Hong
6Alvis 16Jovin
7 Sue Yi 17 Jane
8 Joshua 18 Samantha
9 June 19 Tendy
10 Keat 20 Winnie

When did you meet [14]Hui Jun?2 years back in Temasek Poly...we were lab partners hahaz..

What will you do if you never meet [1]Bonnie before? Then i will have one lesser closer fren in church..

What will you do if [20]Winnie and [9]June date?erm. it won't happen - both are girls..muahah

Did you ever like [19]Tendy? yea - but jus as a fren and ntgh more...

Would [6]Alvis and [17]Jane make a good couple?oh of cos not man...

Describe [3]Mic.. my bestest bud...she's so funni...

Do you think [8]Joshua is attractive? hmm...dat a gd qns...well his gentle man-ess wld attract quite abit tho...but did i say i was attracted? muahahahz...

Tell me sumthing abt[7]Sue Yi ? ermx...she a gud listener...

Do you know any of the [12]Hui yi's family member?yes. her Older Sis and bro not mentioning her papa n mama...

What's [8]Joshua's favourite thing? hmm..dat i dun realie noe..bud if u ask me wad his fave qns...it will be... why are u telling me all this ?

What would you do if [11]Jerry confess that he likes you?Oh man~ it won't happen. I think i'll laugh cos maybe i will be over the moon - i wouldn't know either...
we'll see if it ever gona happens

What language does [15]Jian hong always speak? A mixture of English and chinese...its rojak..thats how the poly ppl speak !

Who is [9]June going out with?Her Chicken! Wonder hows thing going lately liaox..

How old is [16]Jovin now?hmm..if i am not wrong its 28

When is the last time you talk to [13]Jester?9 sept last sat...and i wonder when will our path ever meet...

Who's [2] Wen kai's favourite singer/band?hmm..neva asked him dat so i duno ...dun think there is anywae...

Would you date [4]zell?yea shuai ge leh... if he's willing jus a date anywae~ hahaz...but den again i wont be the one making the 1st move..so u wld noe the ans to this qns...

Would you date [7]Sue yi?yea man...if u dun noe..i love dating gals...ahahahz..

Is [15]Jian Hong single?I should Think SO!

What's [10]Keat's last name? Whye... Why tell me why...

Would you ever be in a relationship with [11]Jerry? um..maybe but i seriously think it won't happen! whoo...man if it does i wld haf a lovely sis- in-law man...den we can all jus hang out... anywae..it was awaes a dream for me to becum family wif the yeo's ...muahah

What school does [3]Mic goes to?SingaporePoly

Where does [6]Alvis lives? oopps i forgt think itsToaPayoh! or is it bradelle

What's your favourite thing about [5]Xin yee ? She's kinda easy going willing to acommodate others..

Have you seen [1]Bonnie naked?Oh my gawd! whahaha! of cos not. Do you think that will ever happen? i think i'll probably burst with laughter!Nonono. This is seriously Funny Rubbish!

2006-09-11T01:07:00.000-07:00

today i realised the importance of being less dependent of our hp...how often we are so guarded against each other that we became so self centred..( the ugly side of singaporeans)

was abt to meet up wif sze den my hp batt died on me...i couldnt contact her simply bcos i din haf the habit of rem ppl number...so in the end we din meet up....having reached there and not wanting to go home...i went to take a walk ard heartland mall...and i chanced upon this bk entitled ''Men are like buses, if u jus missed one...there awaes another ard the corner " in a chritstian bk store...well...its a great bk...i wonder if anyone can loan it to me?..knowing that i m not the kind that will in invest in books ...cos i dun think dey are worth investing in since i m not the kind dat will re-read a bk..

actuallly i think the bk gt me thinking...thinking abt how often we tend to lead a life according to our will...and so often the standard of the world has became a yard stick in our life...whereby , success is measured by our wealth , education, acheviements and wad not....den where's him in the pic or in our life ? arent we told we are supoose to be in the world yet not the world...i must admit it isnt easy to make all the sacrifices...it never was in the 1 st place but we still haf to make an effort to do so ...i guess we are alrdy fortunate eough not to face things such as persecution...i wonder how we will all react if we ever do so? the challenges we faces isnt as challenging yet we often fail to live up to the challenge ...

was blogg reading den jus amazes me how hungry hui jun was for him...it jus put me to shame cos i wasnt...jus wana sae..u gt a great blog so dont ever close it... :) indeed..the greatest gift God has given us is free will...

lastly, jus want to dedicate this part of my post to you...though i dont think u will be reading it...

all the efforts, words and thoughts that went into making the card only goes to show how much i value a fren like you...you are jus a xin fu nan ren...surrounded with such great frens ard...
but den again...i m jus sumone who treasure all my frens tho i maybe selective at times..
well... you arent all that significant in my life jus significant enough for me to show that i care..but i guess all this wont matter to you also...
cos time and again you have proven to me the significance of me in ur life.. :)
but , all this no longer matter..and never will matter...
cos some thing are jus neva meant to be reciprocal..nor do i want them to be either..
at times...i am puzzled by... ( even i too cant understand why)
how i reacted... ?
how i was able to accept things lyke that... ??
the magamity i showed to both of you ???
cos i know for sure if this happened in the past the reaction wld definitely be different
perhaps, i jus matured or grown up...
but perhaps...u were the one who taught me all this...
be it the later or former...
i jus wana say a big thank you !!
jus hope dat u will rem dat...
those words are heartfelt ones and they really came from the bottom of my heart ya..
yapz...and do u mind doing me a lill favour ?
could u take a pic of dat pic and send it to me ...

2006-09-10T07:01:00.000-07:00

there hasnt been any updates lately..well, been enjoying life jus the way it is...
fri was shopping day...went wif mum n del to eat at yum cha...the food was great...
been splurging alot of late...gt sum new clothes...i badly want a revamp of clothes....

sat was great..went to ten dollar club wif mic, jovin n her bros..had losta fun hanging out wif ppl soo much older den us yet we could blend in wif them.. :)
sumtime i jus wished jovin was my real sis ...woah...how great if we were family..
i realie look forward to our next outing...but will it ever happen...will our paths ever cross again?
n mic finalee came over my hse to stay...wha lau..we din stay up long enough to talk once again..
perhaps we getting old...but the chance was rare leh...dont know when u will come again...

2006-09-04T23:43:00.000-07:00

when u grow old...there's so much time and ntgh much for u to do...thats when your life revolves round... eating , sleeping and more sleeping... den it puzzles me...i m so young but i awalys never fails to feel sleepy? slp early wake up late oso sleepy...sleep late wake up early oso sleepy...go to work oso sleepy...bleh...all i want is to sleep sleep sleep and more sleep...heheh...

mic & yixiong >> i reallie enjoy hanging out wif u guys on sun...gao siao man ! although we are not even frens ( yx)...hahah u look realie great carrying my pink bag..haha so when ur bdae cum ask mic to get u dat.... anywae...jus wana say u guys do ur best for the game show cos i think u guys will make a great team...got mo qi...heheh..kampade wor...win liao mas gif me a treat hor...

2006-09-04T10:27:00.000-07:00

tired...vexed... and time is running out...bleh...there so much thing to be done...argh...
went back to sch todae...for grp sharing...n i realised jus how much inferior complexity has set in...how can? is it cos i m too competitive...perhaps jus too uptight...well, even if its jus 5 % we still haf to put in our best effort in everythign we do...isnt it?

argh..i m so a lousy leader..why make me the leader in the 1st plac? xin yee or jas can do a beta job man....cannot make it...onli noe how to kan cheong...n do ntgh...

is everything getting back to normal for us ( it was long ago rite)...will u continue to maintain it dat wae ? this i really duno ...i thing is for sure...no time n effort gona be wasted on it cos i m tired n bz enulf abt my life...

i have said this a million time...sometime i reallie cant comprehend...human relations are so intricate...and if u happen to be reading this pls dun think so much....

2006-09-01T04:20:00.000-07:00

this wkend was spent re-living the good old times we used to share...
permission was granted for me to stay over at mic hse....
woah its been ages since i last stepped into ur hse...
rem how we used to stay overnight there n we tok and tok till day break...
well it all been the past...it beens years since we grad frm sec sch...
yet the frenship never change...u still my bestest budd :)
tho it seems how much we have moved on in life...
yet we noe we will awaes be there for each another...

marg>> it been nice bossing u ard...hahaz...u jus seem lyke my sis...

2006-08-31T10:11:00.000-07:00

the past been a nite mare...
its been haunting me...
keep coming back when it over...
this i dun understand...
are things realie best left unspoken...tell me....
cos i realie need to noe...
considering how 38 i am...

do we really excel when we do thing we really lyke ?
if the ans is yes...
den how cum i dun...i jus dun understand...
maybe dats cos i m jus plain stoopid...
but zell realie rite...
when u pursue things u lyke u will never regret...
even if it means not doing well
cos ultimately it the process dat matters not the end results...
its been great noeing ya...
u are how sensible man...
i hope our frenship will continue to grow...

2006-08-30T10:01:00.000-07:00

it not that i m selfish or wad...it jus dat i need sum time to do my stuff...if i m free i wld haf done it for u...but think of it la...if u were a good bro all the while...perhaps i wld haf gone the extra mile...but too bad u arent well at least in my eyes...u never was...
tok to u , u dun respose...respond onli when u feel lyke it...i m tired of it.....bleh...

2006-08-30T04:27:00.000-07:00

i want to bake cookies...but there's no oven ....no frens wif oven who will let me to...sob sob...
n i must bake them tis week...so dat next week will be free-ed up for other stuff lyke driving...reseraching on uni in aust n canada....blah blah....
i dont want to work cos i need some time to do my stuff...but if i dont work i got no money..not dat i really need it but it jus for the future especailly so if i m going oversea for uni...

you made my dae... :) muahah. but dun think so much hor cos i dun think it is possible n dun hope for it..jus by the sentence u said...i wonder if u will keep ur promise when the time comes...perhaps u will alrdy 4 get what u said.......it all seems like a dream man...

2006-08-26T09:08:00.000-07:00

jus finished doing bs ...the passage so apt...sumhow i tot it was the holy spirit filling me...sumhow i have this assurance in me...an inner peace...not mulling over the uni issue anymore...

well, here's an interesting fact...i jus noe of...onli 20% of the population get to uni locally...n to those who are eligible to enter the jc this means that u are on the top 20% of the corhot...

some times life really is an irony beyond my limits of comprehension...the simplest thing are yet the hardest to seek....yet they are things that bring u much joy...perhaps..in this world and time..life has been too tainted with too many things...

so close yet so far....
sumtimes dere yet not dere...
but i guess dats wad it is...
lyke dat mean lyke dat...
much as i wana change it.......

lastly.... green tea frappe frm starbucks is reealie nice...try it!
if u guys love it...den mas try the green tea milkshake, macchazen, and green tea cum red bean ice cream at azabo sabo.... dey are great !!

2006-08-23T09:19:00.000-07:00

today i realised the existience of kind cabby in spore...

cab to sch todae cos i woke up late...wasted $10 ( dats abt 2 hrs of my pay man)
i spent so much....left hm wif $50 but came hm wif $10...
it onli goes to show...
off = spending $$...

anywaez...went new york new york for dinner...the place not bad...
gt free candy floss too man...but the specialty lies in dat the candy floss was rather different frm the norm....it has a green apple aft taste....tasted quite gud..

2006-08-18T08:28:00.000-07:00

today was the highlight of my week's off...

i stepped foot into NTU... on 18Aug at ard 11...
the feelin wasnt as great as i thought it wld be...
the feeling was foreign...
i was like a foreign matter intruding into sumplace...
jus like hair ( a foreign matter) in the potential hazard template...
even dearie june agreed too....
sounds bad ? but thats reality...much as badly do i want to enter uni...
dats not the place for me i guess..
still special thanks goes to wen kai for showing me ard...i really appreciated that..

not by luck not by chance...but by ur grace i got it...
thanx alot...for the numerous time of giving me what i want...
i guess i am learning to trust in your providence...
it really hard...i must admit...cos i am easily swayed to thinking it by luck...
but many a times i noe it u behind all this...
am i worthy Lord ?

to you >> stop reading my blog...i hate it...stop it ...stop intruding into my space...i feel breathless...n threatened....

2006-08-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

jus sum recent updates abt myself...

i realise i no longer seem to be able to understand myself...perhaps cos my perceptions has been altered along the journey of life...

Finally, i registered for driving...went wif elieen to do so but in the end i was the one who signed up..well well.....its time for me to learnt to do things all by myself...to be independent too...not that i wanst ...jus pushing things abit further...preparing for the future i guess...went shopping alone at hg mall todae...i din noe why i did ...i jus did...for the 1st time in all my life..i went shopping alone..

wee...on a lighter note...i m realie excited abt crashing lect uni....ask me why?...cos i at least i get a feel of what its lyke to be there...tho i sumhow noe...shall blog more on dat dae...

for now...i want the le coq spotish sling bag...thinki falling madly deeply in lurve wif it ...tho its so common...n everywhere corner of the street you can spot sumone wif it...i will get my hands on it man!!

2006-08-06T08:56:00.000-07:00

uni starting for many...another chapter of their life has jus begun...what abt me? still uncertain what the nxt phrase of my life entails... What do i really want? sum how i dont seem to have the ans...well perhaps i have....i want to enter a local uni...but often when dreams and reality deviate we will be at a lost of our direction...if only time can come to a standstill...nlet me wish upon the starry starry stars....

2006-08-03T08:59:00.000-07:00

hmm...here jus a little something i wana share.... i think its really nice...its not written by me ya...but credits go to eugene chew ya...

you who live in Heaven

Oh Lord you who live in heaven
Hear the prayers of those who live here on Earth
The struggle and toil of everyday life
Yes we know here on earth you walked
But thirty short years it was while ours a lifetime

Do you know the cries of a broken heart?
Perhaps the lost of a love one or kin
Yes you endured and losses you suffered
But you are divine and we cannot define

Oh Lord you who live in heaven
Hear the prayers of those who live here on Earth
The pains of separation and isolation
Yes you suffered and carry the burdens of the world
But you knew victory while we encounter endless failures

Do you know hurt?
Perhaps the thought of loving someone you cannot have
Yes your creations rebelled from sins inception
But weak we are and of noble incantations we cannot grasp

Oh Lord you who live in heaven
Hear the prayers of those who live here on Earth
The bloods spilled on alien soil
Yes you shed yours and the cross upon your shoulders
But you died for reasons while many do not

Do you have tears?
Perhaps even a hint of anguish from lives’ trivial losses
Yes you prayed where sweat turned red
But these were final moments while we endure strains prolong

Oh Lord you who live in Heaven
Hear the prayers of those who live here on earth
Awesome and majestic you are
For in your infinite wisdom repose eternity
Of this life and beyond we scarcely understand

Perhaps a journey not too distance where we depart can proclaim
In God we trust.

2006-07-30T10:26:00.000-07:00

whee...i m back...was rather lazy to blog about the trip...well like everything else theres awlays a first time..yes it was my first time to thailand...actually i didnt really get buy much..since there was only 1 day to shop...woah...the cultural show was superb...world class standard man...of cos i enjoyed the dinner on the cruise...marvellous.....one day i hope to go back there...with my friends...

2006-07-25T01:17:00.000-07:00

hmm...my previous entry seem to have spark of some displeasure ...so i think i should clear some misunderstanding ya...firstly, i dont think i am fake...because if you have taken notice i did show my displeasure...well i live and let live...since you are magnanimous enough the case is close i mean its such a trival matter ... dont worry i know the feeling is reciprocate... considering how candid you are...Perhaps i too did think before i wrote..well .....we are all humans...not made perfect afterall...

whee....one more day to bangkok....i hope i enjoy myself.....because its been long awaited man...

2006-07-21T09:06:00.000-07:00

jus came back from celebrating xin yee bdae.......sumhow i wanted to blog...cos of the tots n feeling stirred up by the celebration...

well jus gona focus on some the rest i shall not mention...basically was rather pissed wif .. sometimes i wonder y ppl jus shoot their mouth off without thinking abt other ppl's feeling...no wonder there ppl out there talking bad abt u ...wads the big deal of being attached? hmm.u tell me..din we all started out as singles? ...afterall ur bf isnt very handsome hurh......u think u so big deal hurh...well jus one word for me to describe u ...shallow...u r very shallow.. shant waste my tym on u...bleh..

2006-07-18T07:05:00.000-07:00

wads feelin rather sick these few daes...beens slacking at home.. din really have any mood to get out of the hse...so i took my own sweety tym in my own lala land doing my report...hope i will be fine by sat so i will get to meet up wif june and winnie...its been 2 yrs since i last met winnie...soo i really look forward to sat...well i awaes lyke the feeling of reconnecting...it neva fails to warm my heart...n i hope with dat we will cont to keep in contact...tho the path we take are totally diff..

mic >> i neva expected u to call me :)...suprise suprise...u really brighten up my day...let me tell u y i dun use skype kae...the com i am using is in my bro rm...so he will be able to hear our conversation...no privacy mah...rem to buy me things frm UK kaex..hahaz...

2006-07-14T08:29:00.001-07:00

sumhow or rather i decide to blog..i rem promising mic dat i will update my blog regularly....hmm...gt 2 weeks off starting tis monday...well..working at choc n spice is really tough..i was warned by grace before n sumhow i still wanted to gif it a try...perhaps as the chinese saying goes...chi de ku zhong ku fang wei ren shang ren ...1 wk into it ..i alrdy gt used to the working hrs n stuff...half of me wanted to stop working cos i wanted to take some tym to do finish some reports and stuff..n the other half of me was reluctant to leave..cos dey are so short handed..how could i bear just to leave lyke dat? aftall mary has been quite nice to me...i could see frm day 2 dat she preferred me to sandra...hmm..think i shall think of other excuse when the times comes...but most importantly , i hope she sumhow finds sumone to replace me...but den again i doubt so cos the job is not only tough but the pay isnt veri attractive either....

2006-07-10T06:34:00.000-07:00

i cant believe 3 months pass so quickly...sip has finalee ended...well i must i have learnt quite a lot..hmm...anywae, i started work at the muffin shop today..it was really tiring... stand the whole day for 12 hours straight...the customer keeping streaming in lyke theres no tomorrow...day 1 only n i dun feel lyke working liaox..but den again i dun wanana look sooooo lousy...i noe i can do it..it just a matter of whether i want to a not...hmm...but for now i think i m gona stop blogging for sumtime....

2006-06-27T10:53:00.003-07:00

jus gt back frm the ktv session wif my church ppl...and it alrd cumin to 2 plus... sum how ...i couldnt get to sleep.....well , i seriously need to sleep or i will be a zombie tmr...haix..y do i awaes think so much..

we were sitting in the train and when it gt to my stop... xxx offered to send me home..( xxx isn't obliged to do so rite) sumhow i could sense the intentions were prob not right... mayb i was wrong...its been quite sumtym anyone offer to do it...nevertherless, the feeling is awaes sweet de...but it was short lived...we came out of the train..and the door were on the verge of closing...i turned ard n saw my kor...sooo qiao...we were actualee in the same train... so he gt back into the cabin...and the story end right there period. sumhow the way it ended made me felt that it was GOd's way of closing the door of temptaion.....i guess i think too much... it wasnt even dat way...

lastly, i jus wana sae...xxx u r so gentleman... :) n for the 1 st tym in all my life knowing u as sumone soo close by, i tot u look good n sang quite well... You mayb gg thru a tough period of ur life but u noe wad u've gt a great bunch of budds awaes ever ready to stand by ya...

i duno if u really meant wad u said..well i dun think it matters oso ....all i noe everythings back to realilty for now...

2006-06-19T19:29:00.000-07:00

13 more days and i will be free from sip...but sumhow i feel ..this few weeks crept by so slowly....and its only tue 2dae...i jus cant wait for fri ....well, fri will be a whole dae awae frm the office :) ...i will be gg to marina sqaure to help out for the exhibition...reporting tym is 11 to 9pm....hopefully i get to meet up with june since she says she is working there till its quite late...mayb we can do little shopping too...

ystd i gt a msg frm may...told us she will b bringing me , jing and min to hong kong or bangkok...for once, the timing is rather timely....hopefully min agrees to go cos she is still considering.....wad is there to consider man? accomodation is paid for lor....hmm..i mas persuade u to go no matter wad ....although i dun think i am capable of convincing u ...i will still try...

2006-06-14T00:34:00.000-07:00

the grping for major proj is finalee settled.. i will be working with xy...well the mail she drop me abt whether i wana work wif hj made me really felt insecured...at least the doubts were cleared and i glad cos i noe we both work well tgt...

2006-06-05T22:55:00.000-07:00

the boredom is killing me....there practically nthg for me to do...its just my luck to choose tis proj...everything jus look soo nice outwardly....but inwardly its jus sux...honestly at the end of the 3 months i can jus say i learnt nthg....shouldn't it suppose to be a journey of discovery and learning ? perhaps... it time i learnt self satisfaction...

2006-06-03T08:36:00.000-07:00

hmm..it been quite sum time since i last update...well realiee getting veri lazy tis daes...went to watch over the hedge on wed wif mic and her poly frens...actuali i din realie fin it veri funni tho...guess i seem to lost my sense of humour....

aniwaes...todae i went to pula ubin with mic and yixiong( mic fren) ...jus the 3 of us...i was late cos i tot dey wont go since only gt so few ppl...but nevertherless we went...we spent hours cycling...n were finding our way to chek gava....in the process of doing so we enter a jungle like area...wah lau use our brain oso noe there be any path but we had fun laughing at our mistake of entering the area...only to found out that that's where the wild boar roam when we emerge out of it..we finally gt to our destination in the end...the trip was really a good work out ... but my cycling skills werent good enulf cos we were eventually pushing the bike up slope all the timex...wads more i dun think the slope were steep..mayb it jus the bike...next tym if i ever get back there i mas be able to cycle upslope....

2006-05-22T22:39:00.000-07:00

i m so bored...sitting in the office ..waiting for my supervisor to call me...i took the initiative of calling but the reply i get is still to wait...waiting and waiting when there is actuallly much to be done... the babyfood cluster meeting is on 1 and 2 june yet the sensory evaluation for the baby food has not be done...i haven even started on it... and i m going over to southpoint tmr..this mean i left mon and tue to get it do...haiz... :(

2006-05-22T09:29:00.000-07:00

it goin to be 1 yet i m still awake....jus cant seem to get to sleep, so i tot i will blog..since there isnt anione to call and tok to..everybodys probably too tired aft work and is grantueed to be in deep slp by now..so here goes my post...

i feel lyke a sponge ...absoring ppl's complain when i m alrd troubled enulf...at work serene kept telling us how bad mood is she...aft work i met up wif june and she kept telling how sad she was cos she bought a bag $15 more ex than her fren...haiz....wad abt me ? (one ever bothers) ..it been really tough keeping everything inside... tis tym i duno who to tell cos i doubt anyone will understand....argh...i feel the drift... drifted apart...i tot this week goin to be a good one...but it turn out to be totally diff frm wad i perceived it to be...

i haf been wondering...how cum the 4 of us goes to the same company to work..but..jus 2 days a week awae and things turn out to be lyke dat..as the chinese saying goes..tong ren bu tong ming... but i still belief everything happen for a reason...time relly flies...1/2 of sip is alreadly gone...now all i ever look forward to is the holi..but wads the use...i m awaes looking forward to things and when it comes the excitment dissapears..argh..i cant stand myself...clueless and void..i hate such feelings....pls go awae...

2006-05-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

hey, i m back...well the previous week was stagnant so din really bother blogging spent so long doing my research yet i could not produce a report...well this week i m glad i finally completed it ....i find it really funny i tot i was easily influenced by ppl..perhaps it was cos i allowed it to happened...serene dey all finished thier part and were even in the process of collating it when i haven even start...i like thier way of doing things, efficient...but i noe i will never be lyke them cos thing will only get done by me the very last min..tis so happen to be the culture in my class too..now i noe the diff..and m soo glad i didnt handle their proj ...tho i awaes wished i din took mine cos then my LO will surely complain abt the quality of work produced by me....

ppl awaes tell me how lucky i m for sip( duno y ,perhaps its the pay) ..True...but unfortunately , i gt a bad LO.well the grass awaes seem to be greener on the other side.... All the nasty things she say abt us which is not even true in the 1 place...all the things began to make sense...y ? she told us not to gossip cos she got so uch hidden secrets dere...it really ren bu ke mao xiang...furthermore, she set sum her stoopid standards for us to pass ...i doubt she can even meet it herself..haha, but strange enulf i dont seem to be affected at all ...jus praying hard that i dun fail sip....... tho trouble seem to be brewing wif a LO lyke her.....

lastly, i jus wana say i love working at tanjong pagar......its a great place....nice food esp @ armara and cheap stuff to buy.....( shoes frm charles N kieth can be bought @ $10).. it really a blessing to have met lily as my collegue...shes really so nice.....the 1 dae i saw her i wished so much dat she will be my mummy...well in my heart she will awaes be my god mum tho she already has lotsa of god children...not only is she wonderful she also has 2 wonderful kids who is sooo well like by teachers...i may not have learnt much for sip but surely i learnt a lot from her..

2006-05-07T08:23:00.000-07:00

did not actually wanted to blog cos i m so lazy these days....aniwae jus want to say tcc main course sux....so ex n not yummy at all...went there on fri wif mic and candice...
the results for GE2006 are out...N Mr Low won the hg con ward..but more suprising were the results 4 potong pasir...(so out of pt) ya ..but jus fell lyke bloggin this duno y oso...

2006-05-02T02:22:00.000-07:00

oh no i am getting lazier each day... food safety not done yet...getting sick an tired of researching on functioal ingredients for betime cereal.... but wats worse is that i m stuck i this stoopid office where half the time i m the only one there.... i feel lyke a lonely fish in the aquaruim... :(

2006-04-21T08:18:00.000-07:00

haven been blogging cos i was too lazy to go on the computer....everyday after work i just eat my dinner watch tv and sleep...that is also beacause i have been using the com frm morning till i knock off so i dont want to end up blind at the end of my internship...well working at nestle is not as bad as i imagine it to be...first day of work i read did nthg but read bks...till i almost fell aslp even my supervisor could telli was bored being desk bound...second day things gt better cos i got a computer and was able to start to research on stuff...i went to the nestle HQ at southpt on thur alone...it was the first time i step my foot into such a coporate building...not that i m a mountain tortise or what...the building is those gao lou da sa we always see on the tv...whereby a considerable number of ppl will enter the lift the moment it open ...wah...i never knew dream that i will one day go n work in such a place tho it was only attachment...yesh...i met the big bosses there...i was just thinking who will go lunch with me the day before...and fortunately i meet a nice collegue who showed me ard...so motherly it really made me feel totally at eased...on firday i went back to nestle r & d...N we were having information day... the boss treated everibody curry fishead for dinner cos they were having some celebration for being acident free for 1 yr... it was quite sedap...maybe too long didnt eat curry fishead...everything seems fine and to top it all i got a nice supervisor...so i hope nthg goes wrong in the days to come...i will be going back to the HQ this mon N tue...N i will just have to fend for myself there so i pray hard that ntgh goes wrong there...

2006-04-14T00:19:00.000-07:00

went to heartland mall for lunch n it rained heavily on our way home...the weather is sooo good for sleeping man....i hope it does not rain later so that my frens and i will be able to go chomp chomp for dinner...finally, can go there liao ..been wanting to go there ever since holi...hmm..but the thought of eating those food makes me want to lose weight ..haven been exercising much...tho me n del say we want to carry out the our lose weight plan which consits of exercising and eating healthy food ...i hope i wont gain lots of wt cos since i wold be going to hagan daz for ice-cream tis sat..thanx to the $10 voucher frm starhub....haiz..why am i sooo unmmotivated to go n exercise despite knowing how benefical it is to me...moreover, it is the most effective means of wt maintenance...when SIP starts i will definitely be even more unmotviated...i really dont want to grow in fat....remebering how everyone used to call me fat girl....

was blog reading my chruch ppl blogs...n i realised i din even link anione of them ...ask me y i cant answer that too...i was too lazy /just din not bother to ? well it din bother me too ..

2006-04-13T08:19:00.000-07:00

went back to sch for debrief of food safety.....glad that the induction package was finally over...was rushing through it at the very last mintue cos one of my grp mem did the control procedure not according to what is expected so me and xin yee has to re-do it for her..on top of dat she din do the CCP also ...but with sue yi's help we manage to complete it...my grp name is pear but i tink its more appropriate to be problematic pear instead...well i can forsee numerous problems cropping up man....its just the start yet it started like this...i don't know what else to say...

by now everyone knows where they are posted to for SIP ...well i knew mine way before hand...but somehow i no longer feel like goin there after hearing what my LO say abt how nestle do not take poly interns only uni ones bcos they feel dat we will not be able to match up to their standards(besides the company is really very far from my hse..i have to change 2 buses an d mrt jus to get there..) well that statement really got me stressed cos i tink i got thru the interview by luck and never expected that i will ended up there....true i have the highest pay among my frens..N ppl all wow at the amt,but it definitely comes with a price...i rather be attached to flavourhse n do some no brainer job tho i will be getting $150 lesser....only those going nestle will know how it feels...i feel very pressured....the feelings of insecurities and not being able to sheng ren the job have all started surfaced..bt there's nthg i can do but to go there with a open and passionate heart...i belief God has place me there for a reason..so i will just have to trust in him to provide...the upcoming sem seems really tough cos there's so much to be done on top of SIP there food safety...

Why is it that when i am in the process of getting what i want or have gotten what i longed for i no longer longs for it anymore? This happens very often to me...i feel its soooooo dump....n i hate it..

2006-04-10T09:21:00.000-07:00

went to hui jun's hse ystd to bake carrot cake...but it did not turn out to be up to my standard...it was average...aniwae...sorry for making a mess in ur hse n disturbing on u tho u were willing also...ya i really lyke the bag you have..tho ur sis sae can give the green one to me ..Thanx alots...but if ur sis gif me hers i will be very glad...

phew..went back to sch todae..proj start coming in...i dun tink my grp has grp dynamics..so i dread the whole module of food safety ...there really much to be done within a short period of time...n what's more my internet connections are giving me problems...that is why i have not been updating my blog....aniwae to be able to blog now is all thanx to my dad..u solve the numerous problems for me..but its partly ur fualt too...well..i mam glad everthing is settled..

stoopid starhub+stoopid food saftey+stoopid grp..N stoopid Me.. >> so dao mei....

2006-03-30T23:16:00.000-08:00

celebrated ros 21 bdae ystd...well it set me thinkin hw m i going to celebrate mine...well the expected ppl turned up..its been a while since we all gathered...i tot i will not enjoyed it so i procrestinated leaving my hse but it turned out fine....n i did not reach there so late either..well i mas say i learnt many things..abt ppl ..hw one can look like an angel in front of u .....but say all kinds of harsh things u neva imagined...wah..the site was really pretty hilarious lorx....imagining her as a devil esp since she wore such a sweet top dat dae.....(i doubt ani1 would even noe wad i m tokin abt lor....but it dosent matter )

2006-03-30T07:35:00.000-08:00

watched 2 become 1 le....well i really think it is worth the money....tho the ticket was got @ $1 only...cheap right... eh....i really enjoy watching movie with you..hope we can go out more often.it seems impossible lor but .... i m glad u made the effort to go out this sem....

2006-03-26T07:22:00.000-08:00

fianlee back home aft a long long dae out....been out since 7 plus in the mornin ya..went to escape wif my sec sch mates ...the 6 of us spent sooo many hrs dere bt only managed to play 3 rides..pathetic right..well thank to the heavy downpour....we were totally drenched.it seems as tho we were bathing in the rain ya...it was terrible but memorable..haha it seems to rain heavily whenever the 6 of us met....but we still make a deal to go there again..been out the these few days....suppose to go out with hj tmr but i feel so sick and tired of going out liao...perhaps i should heed joshua advice of not going lor..well its over anyway...

u seems to be drifting out of my heart...but i think it is better this way cos i really hope we do not cross one another paths...let it fade with time....

2006-03-19T05:10:00.000-08:00

had not been bloggin the past few daes..cos there was an error so i could not acess my blog..well was stayin hm chiong-ing ou xiang ju...n doin sum homework 4 my dear sis... it seems dat i went back to sec sch....hee..rem the dae the 4 of us were crazy abt f4..went to mic hse to watch n ate pao main everidae aft sch..wah..i realie miss those daes man....aniwaez...er mo zhai shen bian rocks man....its abt romance and a tinge of brotherlee unexpressed lurve dat resolved into forgiveness...ar....i m 4 eva living in tis world which i awaes tot will happen to me in real life lor...but i lost hope cos i knew it neva will cum true...yapx.things r changing n gettin beta but still i sumhw feel dat i m back to square 1 again..unknowingly..argh..todae dinner was quite sian gt no mood.....n when i reached hm a tinge of sadness feels my heart but i din noe y? nor could i understand..perhaps cos mic goin awae.....for 10 days....u noe hw much i will miss ya...i realie wanted to send ya off bt i duno hw to get dere n the tymin was realie bad lor....

2006-03-15T17:19:00.000-08:00

ystd kbox was great..din realie sang much tho but the guys were realie playful n funni so the atmosphere was high..bt the price was quite steep ..while waitin for hj n her frens a woman came up to me to ask me fill up a survey 4 her...She so happen to be my senior (formally frm my sec sch) n for the duno hw many tym she commented dat i look young...Y do i awaes get such comments .....is it the clothes dat i wear ? or is it jus my face ? i realie duno either...aft kbox we ate dinner @ NYDC....duno y i jus feel soooo sian @ dat pt of time....i jus sat n ate quitely tho i was sittin in front of my dear fren...usually we will tok non-stop de..we went home aftdat.... well to be exact is dey went home cos i went to meet mic @ kovan....haha....it lyke the duno hw many tym she is cumin to Kovan tis past mths...N ron needed to settle sum stuff @ hg so we took the NEL tgt.... we chatted abt sum stuff.. n sumhw we gt on the topic of religion.....it was den i feel i had failed miserably.....i was not able to tink quick enulf n refute him...well n it so happen it reach the stop i m supposed to drop...so i jus told him i tell u another dae...bt sumhw when i told mic abt it i could ans the qns leh...

waitted an hr plus for mic...so she treat me to a bowl of soybeancurd...haha i mas sae we realie gt no yuan wif white tangerine leh....onli gt rectangle ...muahaha....yapx...so glad she bother lookin me up bt its awaes last min tho.....we gona meet tis sat (last tym b4 she goes off 4 her mission trip)

todae is slackin dae cos i gona stay hm watch VCD...suppose to meet june, sam N winnie ..bt i decided dat i wana watch the superstar show so cancel lor......aniwae nort much $$ leh oso..

2006-03-14T02:27:00.000-08:00

went bugis wif sze todae..i wanted to cancel it tho cos i kinda tot my cramps would get worst....but sumhw i din wana stay home n if i din go it will b lyke the second tym i fang her fei ji le...din lyke such things to happen to mua , so i decided to go...aniwae its been a long long tym since i last saw her..well to b exact its eva since aft exams lor......well the weather was bad sort of make us so sianx...actuali was supposed to eat paris buffet todae but cos candice cant make it soo they r eatin tmr which means i wont b goin cos i goin kbox...it din realie matter aft all i noe dat i m goin for buffet tis sat..dun wana eat 2 buffet a wk ....aniwae can save $$ cos the buffet will b paid for tis sat.....heehee... we walked thru bugis strret n i saw the cd i wanted but it happened to be more ex than the org...so sadx...guess i jus haf to mwait for the price to drop furst lorx...

jus read xinyee blog jus nw n suddenlee i realise hw dist we r cos i din even noe wad she was goin thru tis few wks....well i dun tink its anione fault cos she din sae n i din ask soo...perhaps it tym i take more initiative..well such things r kinda hard to sae either ..i duno y such things eva happens .....it wierdx n complicated but cant b helped.....

2006-03-12T03:26:00.000-08:00

went sentosa todae..i realie had fun plannin the games with denise ..hmm.but the games din turn out as well as i tot it will....to me it was pretty screwed up but denise told me it was ok..guess he was jus reassuring me lorx...was realie tired n hungry aft dat bt i still managed to play freesbie tho half the tym i was standing ard bai sui onli...keena scolded by amos for being worthless..well i was dam drained lor n the sand kept goin into my sandal how to run lyke dat ? duno wads he's prob oso .....still threw water bomb at me gud thing i gt my revenge by splashin him wif water usin a 1.5 L bottle...wana play wif me...haha i not so easy to bully lor...well i tink he's quite nice n gentleman lor...jus love the way he will go buy things for us.....but he keep heating me.......nxt tym i shall go count hw many tym does he heat me a dae....aniwae, i went lunch wif the youths n went to nua @ mac wif wen kai n amos....weird combi tho..bt we shared alot .din noe guy so 38 oso...tho it was onli gurls nature....had a great tym wif them aniwaex.....jus keepin my fingers cross dat wad i told them will nt kena blurt out to the wrong person cos i realie dun trust amos lor..wen kai still ok..nvm even if it does i wont blame him la cos i dun tink its on purpose oso....glad i gt to noe ya better cos i tink we click quite well...

GoiNg baCk t0 w0rk @ PMG...

2006-03-08T03:10:00.000-08:00

hee..finalee decided to get a blog....i m sure ppl will sae i m sooo passe la....well i wanted to haf a blog eva since sze gt hers.....but cos exams cumin so din haf the mood to slowly go make one.....aniwaex..nw holi soooo gt lotsa time in the worldz worx....haiz......been realie broke la keep goin outx...... so mas go work to earn sum $ so that i will b able to go eat buffet nx tue wif sze dey all...[realie lookin forward to it la] eh...but the tot of it means i mas go exercise le....cos i tink i m gettin fatter by the dae....sianx....hmm.....goin back to work tmr .hope i will not mess up lyke dat dae.......wonder how it will goes tmr .....lucky may is back in singapore n i will not haf to go lunch myself again ......realie hate to eat alone......hmm, i guess i betta go eat dinner le ...